Well I did it.
Stopped hemming and hawing, stopped making excuses.
I joined Weight Watchers….like Jennifer Hudson belts out, “It’s a new day!”
I attended my first meeting today during my lunch break at work. I didn’t know what to expect to be honest. It was slightly chaotic. Getting in the door was the hardest part though.
Someone greeted me right away and got me started on the paperwork. I was ushered over to a long table with scales and had my ‘home file’ made up. There was a meeting about to end so I sat and listened to it. The meeting leader had a great story-lost 100lbs, kept it off for 2 years.
I think it’s just because I am new….it was awkward. I actually didn’t feel like speaking during the meeting (which, if you know me is NOT typical). Instead, I sat and listened to the other ‘regulars’ talk about their successes and cravings…while the meeting leader added some helpful tips. There was even a ‘quiz’ where we had to guess the ‘satisfaction level’ of certain foods. I got most of them WRONG. That really suprised me. I had to leave early since I was already late to work…the leader had expressed that she wanted all of the ‘new people’ to stay after the meeting. So, next week I will be staying after the meeting to speak with her and get to know the group a little bit.
I was pleased to see all walks of life there and all sizes. There were young and old, slim and heavy, male and female. It also didn’t feel negative-definitely seemed like a judgment free zone.
I think I can do this….for once, I will be balanced. I have seen many extremes in regards to my weight. In 2005 I weighed 200lbs….in 2007, I weighed 114lbs, last year I weighed 128lbs. I would really like to learn to be in the middle….
Seems like how I operate in life too….never content, always pushing….to one side or another. Maybe that should be one of my goals, resolutions, visions for 2011…to just be pleased with being in the middle and really appreciate myself (for once). I bet that’s going to be one of the hardest things I will ever have to do in my life.
Weight Watchers Points Plus, here I come!